Speaking of Tics

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I was recently looking at other blogs and came upon an interesting one about tics.  This is a behavior that has plagued me for years and still continues until this day.  I am not sure where these tics ever came from, but I’m pretty sure they will never go away.

For those of you who have never had a tic, in short, is painful and extremely annoying. You want to stop, but you can’t because your brain needs to do it! The most annoying and memorable tics I have had are tightly blinking my eyes (mostly my right), which was totally embarrassing in my Korean class when the instructor asked me if I was winking at her, but to save face I said that my contacts were bothering me.  The eye blinking became simply unbearable and I had to consciously stop doing it because I was having nonstop headaches.

I grind my teeth all day, but mostly on my right, which has left me with TMJ and chipped teeth riddled with craze lines.  I just got fillings on that side, so I’m actually worried that the grinding will damage them.

Probably the most horrible of all, though, was how once when I got a cold, I began to swallow quite a bit. Even after the cold was over, I kept swallowing and it was a very large swallow, definitely not normal and most definitely a tic. It got to the point where I was swallowing so much that I would get a sore throat and feel like I was drowning in my own saliva, but I couldn’t stop. If anyone understands how terrible tics are, it’s this girl.

When I relate the “tics” to OCD, I feel that they are more compulsions than tics because there is a definite feeling of dire need to perform the tic.  However, I have no real explanation for them, only that they are a part of who I am, even if they are extremely annoying.


8 thoughts on “Speaking of Tics

      1. My chiro told me to go to the sports section in Walmart and buy the rubber mouth guards you boil. I bought 2 (one top one bottom because top one wasnt enough) in youth size for less than $3. Only been wearing for a few nIghts but I think it is better.

  1. I cannot imagine the frustration and pain that comes with having a tic. i applaud you for putting these experiences into words so others can understand what you’re going through!

  2. Thank you for sharing this with us! It’s always good to have insight into these things so that we can try to understand better what people go through. Hope you’re doing better with tics as of today! 🙂

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