Think of Me


I sat down today, with a steaming cup of chamomile and honey tea, and thought about what I was going to post.  Everyone, I’m sure, has experienced writer’s block like this at some point.  I thought about carrying on about how terrible the 1st and 2nd days of spring have been, but I think we’re all probably tired of hearing that, unless of course you live in an awesome place that is actually warm right now 🙂  

As some of you may remember, I created a “short” list of things that I would like to accomplish this year.  Well, I suppose it’s time for a bit of an update on some of the things I’ve been working on.

I can honestly say that I’ve been writing a lot more.  My novel is still not complete, but it’s getting there.  Blogging has also been a way for me to write much more often.  I try not to get too tied up in work and chores, but it’s not always easy to remember to just sit down and do my own thing!

I have also been working on my “art.”  Now, I’m not proclaiming that I’m a great artist at all.  NOT even close.  It’s just something that I’ve enjoyed doing since I was little.  Here are a few of my favorite sketches.  Please don’t laugh!

A Tree
A Tree
A Castle
A Castle

I kind of got off the exercise bandwagon after a particular incident.  I was all excited to be getting back in shape that I hurried and ate dinner and then proceeded to use the hula hoop.  I figured that was probably a bad choice, but kept going.  I finished that a little unsure of myself, and then went on to do the kettle bell workout.  Big mistake.  I’ve never been more nauseated in my life.  I didn’t get “sick” or anything, but I was TERRIFIED that I would.  I have not since revisited the kettle bell.  I’m just looking forward to spring, when or if it ever gets here, to take nightly walks.  I love doing that in the early spring.  The air has a certain spring smell that I just love.  My nose and eyes don’t necessarily love it, but that’s nothing that Zyrtec can’t take care of 😀

Alright, now the next thing is what I was kind of dreading most, but I figured that it could be kind of like pulling off a band-aid.  You just have to do it quickly without thinking really and it will all be over with rather painlessly.  MY FIRST SOLO.  I decided to record myself singing “Think of Me,” one of my favorite songs from “The Phantom of the Opera.”  I was SO nervous recording myself just because I felt like I had to make it perfect.  I must have recorded the dumb thing 10 times before I felt it was “ok” enough to share.  I still don’t really like it.  Please forgive any pitch mistakes or voice cracking.  I should have warmed up a bit better.  It probably doesn’t help that I’m singing a’capella either 😉  I didn’t have the music, so I kind of winged it.  Again, don’t laugh too much 😉  I was pretty nervous doing this, which is ridiculous because the only “person” watching me was Chester.  By the way, he was TOO cute the entire time I was recording this.  He was purring and rubbing up against my phone, which I used to record it.  Some of the recordings, none of which I chose, actually had him chirping in the background.  He’s precious.

Anyway, enough stalling!  Just a quick FYI, I made the creepy slideshow on purpose 😉  I had to have a slideshow or something or other to upload this darn thing.  Also, the song is cut short because I butchered the last note.  Here it is:

Alright, now that you’ve suffered and your ears are split, I’d just like to say thank you for listening to that!

I hope to update you all more on how I’m coming along with my to-do list this year as time goes on.  Big smiles 😀  We can do it!




205 thoughts on “Think of Me

  1. “For Megan”

    Since sudden is the glory of the rose
    and short her moment in this love of life.
    I wish for her disorder not proposed
    to bloom and bloom in thus repeated strife.

    This rose could choose to bloom compulsively
    but nature gives her momentary pride.
    She calms the chatter in a stormy sea
    she smooths the ripples so the boat may ride.

    I am that rose; god gifted me to bloom;
    Once glorified, my pause is sure and sweet.
    The beat of Time, illusion for a tune;
    My silence will find no need to repeat.

    I am that silent rose; that mystery;
    I happen once and thus my constancy.

    (this poem written for a friend of mine who has OCD)

    1. Oh my goodness! I can’t describe how lovely this is and thoughtful. This is the first time in my life that anyone has ever written a poem for me 🙂 If I finish my book, I would love to use this if possible. Thank you for making me smile today!

  2. I love your art! Those are beautiful sketches. As far as the solo goes, you did an excellent job. You have a beautiful voice. I don’t know why I expected country music though. 🙂 Posting both of these (singing and art) is definitely a great way to overcome shyness if you suffer from it.

    1. 😀 Thank you for saying that! I know the recording wasn’t the best. I used my phone 😉 Perhaps you expected country because I’m from IN and grew up on a farm 🙂 Not too far-fetched, but honestly, I don’t like country music 😉

  3. I don;t think I could hula hoop on an empty stomach! BTW, I am thoroughly impressed by the number of people that stop by here … how’d you build such a great audience??

  4. Megan,
    First, why would anyone laugh at your drawings? They’re really good. Second, I didn’t listen to your video because I’m reading this at work but in the future, if you want to upload a sound clip without video, try SoundCloud. It’s easy to upload it to WordPress too.

    Thanks for liking my post. I’m enjoying your blog site as well.

    1. Thank yo IO 🙂 Sometimes, I suppose I don’t give myself enough credit. i just don’t want to come off as arrogant in any way! I have never tried SoundCloud, but now I think I’m going to have to. I couldn’t figure out how to just put a sound file on here without paying to save my life. 🙂

  5. My apologies, I didn’t think till later how personal my message sounded :Z
    I’m so used to speaking to and texting my girls from the ministry that way, it never occured to me, till I’d actually posted it, that “You’ don’t know me and may think my message a little……… can I put this…creepy! So, sorry!

  6. You’re great in drawing :)! That’s the Schwanstein Castle 😀 I spent hours building that with mini lego when I was in the hospital, your really talented, and I’m digging the singing!

    1. I swear I already replied to this, but I guess I haven’t! Yes, that is the Neuschwanstein castle, or at least my rendition of it 😉 I recorded the singing per your request. I know it’s not jazzy, but perhaps next time I can find some background music! I hate singing a’capella 😉

  7. Congratulations Megan on recording your first solo! It was lovely. You are so brave for sharing yourself in this way and with all your courageous words on this blog.

    Thanks for visiting me at my new blog yesterday. It is exciting to get it up and running.

    All the best,


      1. Awesome! I had a boyfriend before that was Korean, and after that I only listen to k-pop, and only date asians, haha ^_^ fun to meet someone that share what I like, and that have OCD too, not everyday I meet someone like that 🙂

      2. 🙂 I’m not really into k-pop and I would date anyone if we had a connection, but I get it 🙂 He’s one of a kind and the culture is so rich. I wish I had a heritage like that.

  8. it’s a beautiful autumn day here in New Zealand. Summer is lingering, but it’s getting cooler. i love this time of year.

  9. Hi Megan,
    Great to see that you’re trying new things. It’s so important to keep ourselves exposed to new experiences. I haven’t experienced writers block yet but I undoubtably will as this is only my 4th week. Love the recording!! It’s something I’m very scared of doing but really want to. I’ve only just had the courage to blog to the world…you sang!!

  10. I love your blog! I love the upbeat positivity of it. Thanks for stopping by The Brass Rag. Come back and see us agin soon. In the meantime, happy writing!

    1. I’m glad you found my blog 😀 My goal, particularly this year, is to be as positive as possible and to be grateful for what I have because I really do have a lot 🙂 Thanks for appreciating that.

    1. 🙂 It was my first solo. The recording wasn’t that good. I did it on my phone. Yeah, I don’t think you’ve ever heard me sing alone either. No one has except Won and now everyone who watches that video 🙂

  11. Dear Megan,
    I found your blog because you liked my last post- thanks God!
    I read through some of your stuff here, and I think what you do is pretty inspiring. Not everybody that suffers from OCD can do the same. I believe it should somehow “free” you from the weight of your struggle. It personally touched me to read your story on your visit to the psychologist. Be sure that I’ll be passing by regularly!
    All the best,
    Mariana (Portugal)

    1. Hello Mariana!

      Thank you so much for stopping by and taking the time to comment. It is freeing for me to write about my experiences. I think I’ve really been able to let go of what I’ve been holding onto for YEARS and it feels so relieving. Thanks for recognizing that and thanks for your support! I do hope to hear from you again.

      1. Really? You have a great voice. However, often times talented people are the own worse critic. The Korean is going well. I just need someone to be conversational with, so that all this learning will stick better. Oh, I also checked out your sketches, Audrey Hepburn is one my favorite actresses..I love your drawing.

      2. I’m glad the Korean is going well. It’s not easy to learn a language without a chance to practice it in conversation. Audrey Hepburn is my favorite too 🙂 Thanks for looking at my designs!

      1. You have a gift and you should be proud. I’m glad you were brave enough to do something so scary. See what happens when you step out on a limb? lol Usually good stuff 🙂

  12. Ok, I have been waiting for you to do this! Applause! Not just for your lovely tone, but your courage to start this! As you know I love to do this, and each time I do it I get more comfortable and more relaxed. If nothing else, it is great exercise to do something that takes you out of your comfort level. So keep posting them, and I will keep listening. You have obviously had training, remember to RELAX and let it flow over you! The best feeling to any soprano is the “floating on the cloud” sensation we get when that pure, high, perfect note floats off our head. It is heaven on earth. Love to you–Lori

    1. Yay, thank you Lori 🙂 It was definitely nerve wracking, but the feedback has been great and I think I would do it again. I think I was just too nervous and it caused a bit of strain. I’ve actually never had private lessons, but I was in choir for 6 years and I learned a lot from that. I was never able to sing with vibrato until I was twenty or so, but now it’s so easy to do and feels wrong if I don’t. I know what you mean about that high pitch euphoria 😉

  13. Maybe I should give over my own fear of public singing and go ahead and do that cover of Unchained Melody by the Righteous Brothers that has been gnawing at me for about a year. Seems like you’re full steam ahead! That’s fantastic, i’m…puttering along. The Science Fiction/Philosophy Inquiry ( novel ) is about two pages in framework, no profound poetry written (yet), and the symphony remains unfinished. I am working up to my marathon despite the shin splints though!

    I find your courage refreshing and sincerity refreshing.

    Thanks for the cover and thoughts,


  14. Awesome! I’m so proud of you for sticking to your goals. Great job on the drawings, and the song. I’m sure your are inspiring many people to pursue their goals as well. Blessings upon you!

  15. that teacup and saucer are to die for! chamomile tea is one of my favorites! this year I’m turning 30 and by the end of this month I will have a list posted of all my goals and completions! when you really want something you find a way. and when you don’t, you find an excuse so 2013 is my year to DO and I’m so so so excited! good luck to checking off your list of to-dos!
    xo- sincerely, Whitney

    1. I got the cup and saucer from my grandmother and it’s an antique. I love collecting teapots and I want to get into collecting other English bone china with the same pattern. How has your list been coming along?

  16. Sounds like you are making progress on your list! I love how you are aiming to do more creative things- and actually doing them! I also can’t wait for the lovely smell of spring!

  17. Megan, beautiful singing. Very nice voice, and lots of potential.
    I like your drawings, too. I like to draw people.
    I, too, am trying lots of new things. It is a new day every day; enjoy all the possibilities, and just enjoy being.
    God bless! Suzi

    1. One thing I can’t draw well and never have been able to draw well are people 🙂 I am terrible at them. I envy this about you 🙂 Thanks for appreciating my singing, even though it wasn’t perfect. This means a lot to me.

  18. I am drinking out of cup much like the one in your picture this morning. It was a gift, with flowers in it, like a little vase originally.
    I have coffee in mine this morning. 🙂

    1. It’s a tiny, delicate little teacup made of English bone china. It’s one of my prized possessions 🙂 It’s actually an antique that I got from my grandma and that I don’t use much, but I dusted it off and used it for this particular post. It’s too pretty to have just sitting around.

  19. I didn’t laugh at all – I actually teared up a little because your voice reminds me a lot of my mom’s. I used to listen to her practice over and over when I was a kid and think “It’s perfect already, what are you so worried about?” I didn’t inherit that particular talent despite her attempts to coach me so I have real admiration for anyone who can sing so well!

  20. Hello Megan,
    I have admit I enjoyed listening to you 🙂 I want to recommend to you recording it again shift down one whole or half tune down and without vibrato so that it feels like you are easily telling a story to a friend feeling comfortable. Would love to listen to this future recording 😉
    Have a great day,

    1. Hello Chris 🙂
      Thanks for the suggestions! I can’t sing without vibrato, it’s very hard not too! Anyway, I will try. I recorded this on my phone, next I will try it on my Mac 🙂
      You have a good day too.

      1. Hey Megan, you are welcome 🙂 just concentrate on the vowel and the rhythm and maybe sing faster songs for training so that you don’t have the time for vibrato 😉

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