One of THOSE Days

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Have you ever had one of those days when it seems like time is standing still?  Well, today was one of those days.

It started off interestingly because I woke up 25 minutes before I had to be at work, which is 15 minutes from home.  I flew out the door and made it there at 3 minutes past the hour, which is okay because we aren’t officially late until 7 minutes after.  The point is I woke up and started driving in less than fifteen minutes and didn’t get to eat breakfast, take a shower, fix my hair, or even put on makeup.  Today was a day that I wore a terrible pony tail.  I say terrible because my hair isn’t quite long enough to hold it up with just the elastic band.  I had to put at least three bobby pins in to hold it up.  It looks terrible and frizzy.  

I get to work and I am SUPER tired.  I usually get over this with a huge Tervis tumbler full of coffee, which Won handed to me as I was flying out the door this morning, so I was SO glad to have that at least.  I usually wake up in about thirty minutes of drinking that, but not today.  I don’t know why I was so tired.  I think it’s because I had a terrible dream that Chester got hit by a car and I saw it happen.

I was covered in sweat when I woke up, so not taking a shower made my day go even better.  I felt super oily and like I smelled all day.  Needless to say, I kept my distance from my coworkers.  To me, feeling dirty is an extreme irritation.  I wash my hands even when I just feel like they need to be washed.  I literally get a feeling that there is something there even though I know there isn’t.  The same goes for showering.  I will admit, I take two to three showers a day.  I’ve heard it all before.  I know it’s bad for my skin and hair and I’m wasting water, but it’s something that I must do in order to “take care” of my obsessions/compulsions, so to speak.  Just feeling unclean all day when there is nothing I can really do about it is a terrible, terrible feeling and one that has left my body tired and weak from the amount of tension and stress I was feeling today.  I hope those of you who have OCD will know what I’m talking about, at least in part.

I felt lost because I didn’t get to finish my morning routine, which takes me about 50 minutes.  I couldn’t do the things I normally do, so the day felt wrong.  My day was totally thrown off.  I never sleep past my alarm like that.  I have no idea what was going on with my body today.

Even though my morning at home went fast, to say the least, the rest of the day moved along like a turtle with two legs.  I must have looked at the clock a thousand times and those hands never seemed to move far.  That’s the bad thing about bringing a watch to work.  It’s always reminding you that you are stuck in the same space for hours on end.  I usually enjoy working, at least somewhat, but I wanted nothing more than to see 5 pm.  When it finally did come, I was the first out the door.

I am so glad to be home right now, relaxing, drinking a steaming cup of peppermint tea, and writing on my blog with Chester on my lap.  This is the moment I wait for everyday 🙂  It’s the everyday things that keep me going, keep me sane, and just make everything better.

Thanks for reading today, even though I just explained how gross I can be 🙂

Best,

M =^.^=

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144 thoughts on “One of THOSE Days

  1. Thanks for stoppin by my blog. I am glad you did so I found yours. I look forward to reading more of it. Have a good weekend!

  2. I don’t get it??? Your horrible,unbearable, gross day sounds exactly like my normal ones!
    You barely made it through to 5 pm? How the hell have i lived so long? I must be a superman or something?

    Or maybe i’m just a perfectly ‘normal’ (what’s normal? – really!) every day schmuck who doesn’t have OCD?
    Enjoy your normalness.

  3. Thanks for visiting my blog. I really enjoyed reading your post. It sounds like you had an interesting day to say the least. If you were one of my students I might have said “well at least you made it to work on time”. I do not have OCD, so reading your blog surely helps me understands how OCD can impact one’s life just a bit more. Additionally, I now believe that I may have just a few OCD tendencies. We are all individually unique!

  4. Hi Megan,

    You sound like a winner! You made it through a rough day, well done!! And the Brit in me smiled when I saw the word “tea”. Lol

    Blessing you with great days!

    Amanda
    PS: Thanks for stopping by my blog and I am really glad I found yours.

  5. Reading your post I could imagine exactly what you were feeling. I have been there myself oh so many times. Many of the bigger OCD issues I have had in the past, I have managed to work through, though I do still have some of the smaller stuff. I no longer need to wash my hair twice a day – Nature took care of that with early baldness – nor do I wash my hands and face several times an hour. It is a major struggle on days like this when your routine is broken. It helps to have several alarms that go off in 15 min intervals. The first wakes you and before you can drop back into sleep the next goes off. Enjoyed your post 🙂

  6. I don;t know if I ever told you but my mother suffers from severe OCD. If she had been in your position, having to get out the house in 15 min, I doubt she would have coped with the rest of the day at all. I do feel for you. Did have to have a giggle at the 2 legged turtle though 🙂

    1. Sounds like your mother and I have a bit in common and I’m sure she is a strong woman. It’s not easy living with OCD, but I’m sure you know this. The two-legged turtle is a creature of my own invention 😉

  7. When you live in the Philippines, taking showers 2 or 3 times a day is a normal thing to do because of the humid climate. I think I know what you are feeling. Having an OCD is not a bad thing, and you’re not different from anybody else.I can see you moving around the house like what Ms. Pillsbury (hope I spelled it right) does to her office.

    Thank you for visiting my blog. I hope you have a blessed Holy Week ahead. Happy Easter!

    Greetings from the Philippines 🙂

  8. You have to do what you have to do to keep yourself safe and sane. Rushing about always exacerbates my anxiety (not OCD related) and if I don’t get the right amount of sleep or wake up too late to follow certain patterns in the morning (coffee, food) then I start to feel very panicky. Tomorrow is another day at least!

  9. Hi Meagan,
    Your honesty is refreshing evn though you didn’t feel refreshed.
    I had a friend ywho suffered from OCD. I’m so sorry you have to deal with this.
    Thank for you for liking my guest post over at Family and Faith Matters.
    I hope the few tips I offered may help in some small way.
    Have a Blessed Easter. 🙂
    Tracy

  10. We all have those days. But you’re right though, those everyday little things make the difference. Giving yourself something to look forward to at the end of the day. And to think, it could totally have been worse. You still got your coffee and Chester is still alive, smiling and everything (which admittedly is kind of creepy :P) Hope you’re doing well despite such an off day!

  11. It was tough but you got through it. One day at a time, if necessary one hour at a time. Breathe through the episodes, walk through with rationality, each day you will feel more capable of beating the crap out of OCD, or would the correct order be CDO, I mean…ah, there I go again. Have an awesome ay.

  12. Congratulations on making it through the day. We a have :something”, OCD or not, and getting thrown off our routine can really mess us up. You should be proud of yourself for getting through it beautifully. And, thanks for liking my blog!
    Leslie

    1. Aw, thank you! It was a Christmas gift from my boyfriend two years ago. It’s DKNY. I love that watch, especially the mother of pearl face.

  13. i’m not “officially” ocd, but I guess it depends on the degree and the label. I mean, I do things routinely: work-out every second day, and that’s when I shower; wake up at the same time and have exactly the same breakfast; go to bed at the same time, late after listening to music, and have to have a glass of water beside my bed; read the paper while having exactly two cups of coffee; skip lunch but eat dinner at the same time, and always have an apple and a slice of dark chocolate after. and if I don’t do all these things, I feel out of sorts, tired, irritable, can’t find my comfort spot all day. that’s not ocd is it? just a relentless routine, kind of like the bus driver doing the same route, greeting the same people at the bus stops, having to be on time on schedule. otherwise, i’m free-wheeling 🙂

    1. 🙂 Your routine sounds quite wonderful really. I particularly like the dark chocolate bit. Great idea in my opinion! I usually settle down to a cup of herbal tea, but I like your idea better 🙂 I can’t say for sure if it’s OCD or not, but it’s an interesting routine at that. You seem like a fun person 😀

  14. You’re a very good writer – felt like I was right there with you all day. And I totally get the relief of being home where you have those comforts that make you feel so at peace. I’m happy you visited my blog so I could find yours. Keep that alarm set girl!

    1. Great advice! I’ve been setting two alarms since.
      Thank you for your kind words. Home is the best, in my opinion 🙂 I’m sure you’d agree.

  15. A great read, as always, I don’t suffer from OCD but I am right with you on the routine change, I work away and if something breaks my Monday morning routine then I never quite feel right till I get home again I am convinced I haven’t packed something or done something. I can only imagine how much worse it is for you, keep up the writing though!

  16. OCD or no OCD I think we’ve all had days like this, and in my opinion it’s better to be super clean than dirty. When I have to get up early a strong cup of coffee and a 20-minute shower are the only things that wake me up!

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