This past week has been gorgeous. We’ve had astonishingly warm weather and a lovely sun all week long. Then on the weekend, when I actually have time to do things, it rains and rains and rains…
I’ve said before how much I dislike the rain, ugly days, and cold weather in general. With the rain has come cold air and with the change in pressure comes headaches, body aches, and general grouchiness.
I’ve hit a reflective stage in life, meaning that I’ve taken the time to really “see” who I am as an individual. I’ve realized something in myself that I do not like at all. I am a person who goes through what I like to call “mood cycles.” Now, this is just something I’ve noticed in myself and it may very well be a “normal” human characteristic, but it’s got me to see an area in my life that needs change.
These “mood cycles” come and go, as cycles do. Let me explain this to you. I like to look at this as a two-part cycle, so to speak. For days on end I am very happy, fun to be around, loving and smiley. I LOVE these days and of course, it just so happens that this happy part of the cycle occurs on those beautiful, sunny, perfect-weather kind of days.
On Friday after work, my boyfriend and I went shopping and I bought new clothes for the summer. This was a happy Megan time. I don’t buy clothes often, but when I do I buy clothes that are good quality, which means that I spend quite a bit on them. Remarkably, I was happy up until the point that it began to rain that evening. Here are the clothes I bought. Needless to say, I’m very happy with my purchases. This was definitely a happy time 🙂 I mostly just wanted to share my new clothes 😉
The other half of this cycle is made up of mean, grouchy, jerk Megan. During this phase of the cycle, I lash out, nag, say hurtful things to those I love and just have a general “bratty” attitude. I DESPISE these days, which almost always occur on rainy, damp, ugly days, like today. I would say this is PMS (sorry to gross anyone out), but I really don’t think that’s what it is, or maybe it is. I guess I don’t honestly know. Unfortunately, the Megan writing this is the grumpy Megan. Today is an ugly day. It has been raining nonstop since Friday night.
I realize that this is good for the crops, something my dad relies on for a living. Even with crop insurance, dry weather, like we had last year, is hurtful to everyone. Now it’s getting to the point that there’s too much rain and the seeds that are being planted now are washing away.
I am sharing this because for me, writing is a way to conceptualize myself better. Obviously I can recognize the things I want to change in myself, so I’m making this a time that I can reflect on me and do away with the grouchy Megan, at least some of the time.
I’ve made a list of why I dislike days like this, just to really get at the core of my overall bad mood:
- Rain ruins my shoes
- Rain gets my car mats dirty
- I track dirt in the house when my shoes are wet
- The rain makes my hair frizzy
- Washing my car on Thursday was so pointless
- The barometric pressure gives me a headache
- I can’t go for a walk/run
- The darkness/cloudiness makes me sad in general
- My house is damp
- The air is colder and it is much more humid
I struggled actually coming up with 10 things, but the OCD in me wanted to make a nice, even list. Now, here’s a list of things that I appreciate about rainy days:
- I have an excuse to not exercise 😉 (kind of a joke, but not really…)
- The pollen is being washed away!
- Plants are being watered
- Our reservoir is being replenished
- I can blog and paint my toe nails (As seen in the pic below)
I was clearly struggling for this list, but I did try to look at the positive, something I’ve been trying to do more of this year.
Now, staying inside isn’t always terrible. I get to see much more of Chester 😉 Here is a picture of Chester throwing his toy mouse in mid-air. It’s pretty cute 🙂 I just wanted to share it because it’s so funny.
I hope you are having a wonderful Sunday afternoon and I will try to do the same 😀
Thanks for reading.