This weekend, I decided to paint the picture above. I’m not sure what it is, but I was inspired by something that I saw in a museum recently. Perhaps I should have signed it, but I didn’t think about it until looking at it now. It’s not perfect, but it was fun to do and something that I have been wanting to try. I’d like to think I’m an artist, but I know better 🙂 There are great, highly talented individuals out there. For me, it’s just for fun.
After I finished the painting, I sat down and began writing in my journal. I found myself contemplating about who I am. This is vague and random, but have you ever just sat down and thought about what makes you, you? What characteristics do you have that make you unique? Well, I did 😉 I wrote a number of things in my journal and I wanted to share those with you now.
Let’s start with the basics: demographics:
- Blonde/brown hair
- Blue/green eyes
- ~115 lbs. (I avoid weighing myself, so this is an estimate).
- 23 years old
- Scottish, Irish, German, Swiss, and French heritage
- Live currently in the Midwest and have lived nowhere else
- In a committed relationship
Now, those are some of the obvious things, but what I found difficult was finding those deeper parts of myself that are just part of my existence. The things that I never think about, but are there and are me:
- I play a number of roles: adoptive mother (to a cat), caregiver, partner, friend, family, sister, aunt, daughter, writer, artist, amateur photographer, employee, alumni, homo sapien 😉 , cook, housekeeper, gardener, intellectual.
- I am living with a mental illness that tries to rule my life, but as of right now, things are bright.
- People have told me that I’m: shy (I heard this so much when I grew up), smart, intelligent, sarcastic, grouchy, mean, funny, pretty, an overachiever, obsessed with cats, nerd, dork, cute, aggressive, talented.
- I enjoy art, photography, literature, writing poetry.
- I believe in the supernatural.
- I love animals, particularly cats, probably more than I love most people.
- I’m a great driver. I’ve never had a wreck, not even a fender bender, and have only been pulled over once when I was 16 for having a burnt out headlight.
- I come from a small town and I literally knew everyone I went to school with, if they were in my class or not.
- I am still friends with the same people I was friends with in elementary school.
- I sang choir for 6 years. I miss singing in a choir so much. In recent years I have taught myself vibrato and am very comfortable with it now. My voice has matured quite a bit since I graduated high school.
- I have always felt like I was smarter than everyone else. I know that’s not the truth, of course other people are just as intelligent or more so, but I have lived most of my life looking down on the intelligence of others. It’s only until recently that I’ve backed off of this a little.
- I cry easily, as is probably the case with many women. A memory, a news story, or even a good book will get me crying. I wonder how many tears I have cried in my lifetime? A lot, let me tell you. My life has been riddled with tears.
- My first job was as a dishwasher in a restaurant. I was 17. I left after my pervert of a boss put the moves on me. He was 46.
- I grew up Catholic. When I was a kid, my mom and dad made sure we were in church every Sunday.
- My parents divorced when I was 9, I think. It’s been so long ago, I really don’t know how old I was actually.
- The only sport I really played was soccer and that was for less than a year. I was hit in the face by a soccer ball during a game and my nose started to bleed. I wanted nothing to do with sports after that.
- My hero is my grandmother Rosemary. She passed away in 2007 and I still cry just thinking about some of the cute things she did.
- I have been in my current relationship for almost 6 years and although we have had some rough times, I have never been happier than I am now. I’m controlling my life and it’s awesome.
Well, that’s enough for now. I hope I didn’t bore you. It was a good time for me to reflect upon myself anyway. None of this was supposed to be bragging, not in the slightest. I was just trying to give myself an accurate view of some of what makes me who I am.
Now, enjoy a picture of Chester. I love how you can hide something that a cat is not interested in and then pull it out months later and it’s their new favorite thing. Chester didn’t sleep in his bed for months. I put it on my bed and now he’s there all the time 😉
Thanks for reading!