I love this time of year, except for the dreaded humidity. Anyone who is from the Midwest, particularly Indiana, knows what I’m talking about, when the air is so thick you can see it. My OCD is partially dormant for now and I am doing great. I’ve had the chance to focus on my health and just take care of my well being without going to such extreme lengths to avoid certain things.
For the last few weeks, I’ve seen a family of deer in the woods in front of my house. They are getting braver and braver because sometimes I’ll look out the window and they will be only about 10 feet from the house. They also don’t scare easily anymore and I can get pretty close to them. The other day, I noticed that one of them was a baby. I probably would not have seen it had it not walked into the open for a bit. It was so tiny and cute. I finally grabbed my camera and snapped a picture of one of them. Last night, I was by myself writing in my journal. Chester was next to me chilling on the couch. It was totally quiet. Suddenly, we both jumped at the sound of something screaming. It sounded like it was in pain. I went outside to see what it was, but it was getting too dark and I don’t see well in low lighting, so I couldn’t see anything. Interestingly, when I went outside, it stopped shortly thereafter. I went back in and it started up again. It was so eerie that I was getting chills. I finally just turned on the dishwasher to drown out the noise (and clean the dishes, obviously). Looking back, I wonder if it was the fawn? 😦
Anyway, that’s what was going down when I was writing in my journal an idea that I got for a post from fellow blogger Tatsat. He gave me the idea to write about “what I want to be.” While sitting on the couch, I started writing a few things to finish the sentence “I want to be…” and I just kept coming up with things. The list could probably go on for quite a while more, but it’s probably not humanly possible to be all of those things at once. Some of what I wrote is the same thing just said in a different way, so forgive that. Here is the list that I came up with in my journal:
I want to be:
- a caring person
- a loving sister, daughter, and spouse
- someone who is valued
- an educated woman
- an accepting person
- generous with the gifts I have been given
- an author
- more understanding and patient
- able to see past the now and keep the future in perspective
- a successful professional
- someone who is remembered for the good I have done
- a skilled artist
- more mindful of the things I say
- less irritable
- a homeowner, someday
- debt free for most of my life
- able to look at myself in the mirror and see beauty.
Yeah, I just wanted to share a picture of Chester 😉 This is one of his favorite spots.
This is everything that I wrote in my journal and I’m glad I shared it. This gives me a lot to think about.
I’d love it if you could share some of your own!
Thank you for reading 🙂