A Show of Gratitude

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I started blogging in November of last year and have learned so much about myself and have gotten the opportunity to meet some incredible people.  I titled my website, “The War in My Brain” for a reason.  I struggle with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), which involves me obsessing over something and then feeling compelled to engage in routines to make these obsessions a little less obsessive 😉  Some days, there is no escape from me and whatever is happening within my brain.

I started blogging in November for a reason.  The colder months, aka end of October until the end of March, are the worst for me.  My OCD gets worse in a cyclical pattern and the only explanation I have is the increase of illness in the colder months.  The warmer months are somewhat of a reprieve for me, a time when I can take a break from the this disorder.  I wanted a way to express myself and to hopefully share something with others. I have grown so much since I began, what I like to call, “blogging therapy.”

I think there is a lot to be said about the power of expressing oneself, of being able to share the things that are nagging us, and meeting people who share the same pains and triumphs.  You amazingly supportive bloggers have done more than you can imagine for me.  The support and kind words alone have done so much to boost my confidence and help me to work towards a better me.  It is a comfort to know that so many have similar experiences and that I am not alone.

Here is something I wrote as an expression of sincere gratitude for everyone who has ever visited my little corner of the blogosphere 🙂

“Roots”

Going through life alone is like being a tree,

growing in a field by itself.

Without a forest, the tree is vulnerable.

Lightening, powerful and hot, strikes the tree,

splitting the beautiful rings of age,

burning the leaves, the bark, down to the roots.

A charred, smoldering stalk stands among the ripening,

flowing honey sea of wheat.

The tree is left a shadow of its former self.

Months pass, winds blow, rains fall & snow freezes.

The tree is nothing but a sad stump,

a withered hunk of rotting wood.

Support from others is like an ash grove,

root systems intertwine, entangle,

sharing the nutrients, the sweet water,

all that’s good from the giving earth.

Trees thrive in the grove,

relying on others for survival.

The root system becomes massive, strong, unstoppable.

With others, the lone tree is strong &

will continue for years to come.

Thank you friends for reading.

-M

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67 thoughts on “A Show of Gratitude

  1. Blogging therapy..I like that…I benefited the most from talk therapy…It still took me a year after my last talk therapy session to find I needed to get it out and blogging was a great way to do that. I Think I also started in november I would have to go back to look…I have definitely made progress. Thank you for also sharing your struggles!

  2. Lovely poem and great analogy to life. While I have often thought of life as a tapestry of interwoven threads all in delicate balance. When one gets pulled things go out of sorts and can unraveled if not tended too.

  3. I love your openness. Not too many people are brave or bold enough to say what you do I appreciate that in a human being!!! I too am very open!
    Most people don’t know how to take it When people like us open up to the world but I say we only have one life so let’s share ourselves! Thank you so much for your blog post I appreciate who you are as a human being!
    Even though I don’t personally know you, you’re amazing!

    1. Thank you so much for your kind words, Rebecca. I haven’t always been so open, but I finally got to the point in my life where I could be. There’s no point in me holding everything inside. I’d rather be sharing what little I know with the world 🙂

      1. My favorite part of what you said is admitting how little you know and that you like to share that with the world….
        Usually people like the claim to know more than they truly do. So it’s nice to meet someone equally as humble as I am! Learning is my favorite thing to do

  4. A lovely post a lovely poem and a lovely way to deal with how you feel..winter is a problem for people also because the lack of light which we need to create the happy joy joy feelings…winter we hibernate and by taking our bodies inside we have more inside our own head time…for some reflective and restful and for others stressfull..keep blogging away you are clearly enjoying it and we do to 🙂
    Fozziemum

    1. I definitely agree with you there. Sunshine is healing for the mind and the body. I think overall people just do better being exposed to a healthy amount of Vitamin D. 🙂

  5. I am so pleased that blogging has been such a positive experience for you – I can relate to the OCD to a point and I can only imagine how hard it must be for you. 🙂

  6. Writing is an extraordinary help with one’s struggles…as is literature, which I’m sure you’ve discovered. Wishing you the best in your continued writing. Your poem is lovely and quite touching, as it highlights the need for connection with others.

  7. Beautifully written! Thanks so much for popping over the my blog, am glad you did because it meant I got to see yours 🙂 xx

  8. “Blogging Therapy” is something that was featured on one of the first episodes of the BBC’s Sherlock….and you know….it works. It works in a way that group therapy never has for me. I’m glad you chose to write. Keep it up. 🙂

    1. I love BBC’s Sherlock 🙂 I think I vaguely remember that episode, but the seasons are so few and far between that I would have to watch it again to have a better memory of it 🙂

      1. I’m excited to see the next season come out. I haven’t seen anything of it yet, because we don’t do cable or anything, and when NETFLIX gets it, we marathon it. 😉 A bit of a cheat, but we watch them over and over again. That is a great show!

      2. I do the same! Netflix does have the first 2 seasons of it I think or maybe just the 1st. I think I got the second season by downloading it. 🙂

      3. I’m excited to see the next season come out. I haven’t seen anything of it yet, because we don’t do cable or anything, and when NETFLIX gets it, we marathon it. 😉 A bit of a cheat, but we watch them over and over again. That is a great show!

  9. That’s a great poem 🙂 And yes… blogging therapy… many of us blog for that very reason… and I’m certainly no exception! And yes… it helps a LOT. I used to care a lot about how many people read my blog but honestly, I don’t so much now… because I don’t write it for others, I write it for me and my son and if others benefit from it too, then that’s great. Otherwise, they’re free to read something else 🙂

    So I say write what you want to write, say what you want to say and feel better as a result… we’ll be here for you either way 🙂

  10. It is good to know that I am not the only one who uses blogging as therapy. I have met so many people who can relate to what I am feeling and experiencing. The anonymity of it all helps too. Being able to express your thoughts and feeling to stranger without fear of judgement is especially nice. 🙂

    1. 🙂 Thank you! Sometimes writing feels like a chore, but I feel better afterward and I like sharing with others. Getting a response back is an extra bonus 🙂

  11. I am happy to see find this, quite by accident. I have struggled with OCD over the years, and finally have come to peace with it as much as I can. It is refreshing to see your optimism. : ]

    1. I’m so glad that you found my blog 🙂 Before I began writing on here, I had no idea how many people suffered like I did. It’s comforting to know that your not alone 🙂

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