I started blogging in November of last year and have learned so much about myself and have gotten the opportunity to meet some incredible people. I titled my website, “The War in My Brain” for a reason. I struggle with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), which involves me obsessing over something and then feeling compelled to engage in routines to make these obsessions a little less obsessive 😉 Some days, there is no escape from me and whatever is happening within my brain.
I started blogging in November for a reason. The colder months, aka end of October until the end of March, are the worst for me. My OCD gets worse in a cyclical pattern and the only explanation I have is the increase of illness in the colder months. The warmer months are somewhat of a reprieve for me, a time when I can take a break from the this disorder. I wanted a way to express myself and to hopefully share something with others. I have grown so much since I began, what I like to call, “blogging therapy.”
I think there is a lot to be said about the power of expressing oneself, of being able to share the things that are nagging us, and meeting people who share the same pains and triumphs. You amazingly supportive bloggers have done more than you can imagine for me. The support and kind words alone have done so much to boost my confidence and help me to work towards a better me. It is a comfort to know that so many have similar experiences and that I am not alone.
Here is something I wrote as an expression of sincere gratitude for everyone who has ever visited my little corner of the blogosphere 🙂
Going through life alone is like being a tree,
growing in a field by itself.
Without a forest, the tree is vulnerable.
Lightening, powerful and hot, strikes the tree,
splitting the beautiful rings of age,
burning the leaves, the bark, down to the roots.
A charred, smoldering stalk stands among the ripening,
flowing honey sea of wheat.
The tree is left a shadow of its former self.
Months pass, winds blow, rains fall & snow freezes.
The tree is nothing but a sad stump,
a withered hunk of rotting wood.
Support from others is like an ash grove,
root systems intertwine, entangle,
sharing the nutrients, the sweet water,
all that’s good from the giving earth.
Trees thrive in the grove,
relying on others for survival.
The root system becomes massive, strong, unstoppable.
With others, the lone tree is strong &
will continue for years to come.
Thank you friends for reading.