Blue Candlesticks, Tornados, and Therapy

Had to start off with a picture of Chester
Had to start off with a picture of Chester

This post has nothing to do with Chester, but I wanted to share this picture of him πŸ™‚ I took this only minutes ago. He’s sleeping at the foot of my bed in his kitty bed πŸ™‚

There are some things that I hate to change, such as my routine or the layout of my house, but other things bring welcome change. Β I really got the DIY bug this weekend and just had to do something. Β I am still thinking about making a bench to set at the foot of my bed, but will probably wait to make that a project to keep me busy while my bf is in Korea. Β Instead of tackling the bench, I spray painted old, ceramic candlesticks bright blue. Β I got the idea online. Β I think they look much cuter. Β I got them from someone awhile back and I didn’t have the heart to tell them that they were not my taste, so I took them and kept them in a box for years. Β It’s a good, small change and really ties in with my bedroom.

Before (these were not here prior to the makeover. They were stowed in a box).
Before (these were not here prior to the makeover. They were stowed in a box).

Last week, I also thought about scheduling an appointment with a therapist. Β I was nervous about doing this because I wasn’t sure how insurance paid for mental health services, so I was scared of scheduling an appointment. Β After checking with my insurance online, I found a counselor who was in network and scheduled an appointment. Β I took off early from work and drove across town to the clinic. Β The therapist was really nice and understanding. Β I told her about everything that was bothering me and how I felt that I had only gotten so far with medication and was ready to move forward with therapy. Β About 30 minutes into the session, the tornado sirens went on and the entire clinic was put into a “code black,” which apparently means that everyone had to go to the lower level. Β 20 minutes later, the “code black” scenario was called off and we could resume as normal. Β Honestly, these things only happen to me. Β Anyway, she gave me some suggestions for books to read in the meantime and I made an appointment with her for next Wednesday. Β What’s even better is that my insurance requires only a co-pay and I can go as many times as I want per year. Β πŸ™‚

I have a feeling that this will be a good change. Β I have been doing better in the past year, but really want to move even further forward. Β It’s no fun living with needless, irrational anxiety, so I hope this can address it in some way πŸ™‚

Thanks for reading.



59 thoughts on “Blue Candlesticks, Tornados, and Therapy

  1. I’m glad you’re talking to someone about it! I hope she helps.
    You’ve got great insurance! I’m limited to 20 visits annually, with a $50 co-pay per visit. My therapist actually called me to double-check if I even wanted the first appointment!
    Tornados are no fun. I grew up in the Midwest. I hate storms.
    Cute shade of blue!

  2. That’s very brave of you to take this next step, really cool of you to share it, too. I’m wishing you the very best. You should totally have a business on the side buying stuff at thrift stores and yard sells and fixing them up to resell, you’re really talented. And Chester is a handsome beast.

  3. IT REALLY DID IMPROVE THE CANDLESTICKS. You are very fortunate to have the insurance you have. I would have had to pay the copay, then have most of the rest of it circle around and come right back at me!!!! πŸ™‚ So glad you didn’t paint Chester (!)…he’s a work of art already!!!!!

  4. I hope therapy works out for you. There are days when I feel like therapy has been the exact thing I needed, and days when I feel frustrated that it isn’t doing what I want. In the end, I think it’s ME that isn’t doing what I want, but don’t tell anyone I said that. πŸ˜‰
    Good luck with the therapy! (and the candle sticks are ca-yute!)

    1. I hope it does too and I’m still in that early, hopeful stage. If anything, it’s at least nice to talk about my feelings and thoughts and issues with someone who understands and at least appears nonjudgmental. I’m glad you like the candlesticks!

  5. Mmmm… living with irrational anxiety – I can relate to that. No fun. Good to hear the seeking of help was a positive experience

  6. Well, as a cat and dog owner, I do not like tornadoes because my zoo hates them! However, I am delighted that you found someone to talk to. Good luck!

  7. Wow, I like the change in the candlesticks. What a clever thing to do. And a therapist and a tornado warning all in one day must have left you a bit exhausted and in need of some quieter Chester time πŸ™‚

  8. First off, great job on the candlesticks. Second, I hope that you are able to find peace with the help of your therapist. It’s difficult living with anxiety and needless anxiety is even worse.

    1. Thank you! They were fun to paint and a very easy way to change up things. I hope that I can make some headway with therapy, but if it just means that I have someone to talk with about the things I am struggling with, then that’s great too. Thanks so much for your continuous support and encouragement πŸ™‚

  9. Loving the new candlesticks! They look much cuter in blue.
    I’m glad to hear you’re positive about the therapy, I can vouch for it’s healing effects :). That’s cool that you can get it on the insurance!

    Over here our employer will pay for the first 6 sessions and then we either have to pay ourselves or get an NHS (nationally tax funded) therapist, where there is something like a 6 month waiting list, and no guarentee of regular appointments. But i’m willing to pay until i’m better so it has to be done I guess! Good luck on your journey :D. x

    1. I hate that we all seem to have difficulties getting healthcare through sensible means! Why is it so difficult? i’m thankful for my insurance, but hate the thought of being tied down to a corporation. Thank you so much for your support and encouragement!

  10. Oh the candle sticks are nice! They would have been in a box in my house as well and now I want them. Great job!
    Eager to hear how therapy helps. Is the goal to ultimately attempt to manage without drugs or do you foresee combination therapy?

    1. My next appointment is Wednesday and I will definitely share how it goes. I am hoping that a combination of therapy and meds will get me to a place that I’m actually comfortable with. We will see!

    1. I read that just going to a thrift store, getting a few random ceramics that are kind of kitschy and then painting them bright colors is a good idea too πŸ™‚ I want to find an owl or cat and paint it red or pink.

  11. Love the new look of the candlesticks and good for you for trying therapy. I have been dealing with panic attacks for about 10 years now. The first 6 years were tough but I now have a better understanding of the disorder and with the help of my doctor and minimal meds. I can live a more “normal” life. Best wishes on your journey of self improvement.

  12. Good luck with therapy, I have found that it has gotten me a lot further than any of the meds. Just out of curiosity- and if you don’t mind – what books did they recommend?

    1. Sure! She recommended 2 books: 1) “When Once Isn’t Enough” 2) Stop Obsessing! (I think the author of this one is named Fao).

      I ordered the first one, but am not sure of the authors! I hope this helps πŸ™‚

  13. i really hope this therapist turns out to be good for you – it is so helpful to find someone you can relate to and who speaks into your life with wisdom. I suffered with anxiety and depression for many years and saw several counsellors but it was the one i saw last and worked with for 2 years who really “got me” and with whom I was able to make my breakthroughs. I wish you well – whatever the weather – yes a tornado warning is kinda extreme – glad you see the funny side.

  14. The candlesticks are beautiful. I am happy to hear you took a step forward and are trying therapy. I put my daughter in therapy after her dad died and I like to think it helped her at least a little. Good idea waiting on the bench project until you will be bored and alone. I look forward to hearing how it goes. Have a great weekend! πŸ™‚

    1. I’m sure it helped her more than you know. If anything, it gave her an avenue to express how she was feeling. I’m glad you liked the candlesticks! Thank you for your continuous support. I appreciate it so much πŸ™‚

  15. I just started OCD medication. It is already working. What a relief to be free of it all. I am supposed to do Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. Have you ever done this and was it helpful….and what the heck is it, if you know?

    1. The medication takes the edge off a bit, but it’s by no means a cure all, which is why I’m trying therapy. CBT is basically just learning ways in which to consciously not engage in a behavior, like make an effort not to check the stove 4 or 5 times, but just once.

    1. Aw, thank you for the award! Sorry for the delay on this message. I will actually be seeing my counselor for the second time today. We’ll see how it goes πŸ™‚

  16. 1. Look at you taking care of yourself! Hooray! 2. HUGE improvement on the candlesticks! Love love love the color. Isn’t painting fun? I love DIY projects. Good on ya!

    1. I am into diy projects so much right now πŸ˜‰ Some of the things in my home I redid myself and I love to do that. My mom and I are going to antique stores this weekend, so hopefully I can get something new to work on!

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