Sorrow on a Sunday

DSC_0379Do you ever let a day go by without doing anything memorable?  Is there ever a point at the end of the day when you say, wow, I did absolutely nothing today?  Today was that sort of day.  I did nothing and I am not proud of myself.  I filled up my car with gas, but when I went outside the sun even hurt my eyes.  Also, I have only talked to my cat the entire day and he’s been sleeping most of the time, so it’s been weird to say the least.

I'm sorry Chester that you were bored too :(
I’m sorry Chester that you were bored too 😦

It has been a day where I have had too much time to think and not enough to do to keep my mind occupied.  I haven’t had one of these days in awhile.  They only come around when my boyfriend is not here.  I feel totally useless right now.

The only thing that I really “did” was paint the picture above.  It was a fun one.  I only really like to paint things that don’t require a great understanding of depth and dimension because I’m terrible at painting actual things.  I basically just painted half the canvas black and the other half white and then ran a wet sponge along the top to create the running effect.

Other than that, I watched House of Cards all day long.  I am saving the last couple of episodes for later.  Whenever I end a show, I feel terribly sad.  I’m getting that way with this one.  I don’t want the first season to end!  Even though Frank Underwood is a terrible person, I am extremely attracted to his character!  I should have started it closer to when the second season will be released. I do that a lot, become sad when I finish a TV series for good or just for a season and have to wait, or when I finish a book.  Actually, if the book is good, then this happens every time I read a book.  It rarely happens when I watch a movie, but sometimes. I really start to feel like I know the characters and can relate to them in some way.  It’s weird, I know, but I hope at least someone can understand this.

I actually came up with a list of TV shows that I loved so much and was heartbroken when they were ended.  Some of these are still going, but the season has ended:

  1. The Office. I actually cried during the last episode.  I have seen every episode at least 5 times.  It’s my favorite series of all time and always will be.  Nothing will be funnier to me 🙂
  2. The X-Files.  This was a great show and it had a long run, but it didn’t make it any less sad when it ended.  My sister and I still talk about this show all the time.  I’m a huge fan of conspiracy theories and sci-fi, plus the characters were awesome.
  3. Lost.  I watched the entire series in two weeks one summer on Netflix.  My sister and I were watching it at the same time and would call each other to talk about it.  I’m pretty certain we were both totally shocked by the ending.
  4. Freaks and Geeks.  This show never should have been canceled after the 1st season!  This was a GREAT show.  I loved all the characters and I honestly can’t believe it didn’t get renewed for a 2nd season.
  5. Eureka. This show is a bit more obscure and had a great ending, but it was fun and my boyfriend and I enjoyed it so much.  🙂
  6. The Tudors.  It made me realize how much of a d**k Henry VIII was and how sad the story of his wives is.  Obviously it could only go on so long since it is based on a man’s life. Still sad when it ended.
  7. Borgia.  This show is still going on, but I have to wait forever and ever between seasons.  I love the sexy dynamic between the two main characters, Lucrezia and Cesare.  Ok, I will admit, they are brother and sister and that DOESN’T mean that I’m some weirdo who’s into incest.  It was just a different time in history when this sort of thing wasn’t totally unacceptable 😉  Also, Cesare is gorgeous.  I can’t wait to see what happens in the 3rd season.  This show is not the same as Showtime’s The Borgia’s.  I think this one was aired on BBC or something, but I watch it on Netflix.
  8. American Horror Story.  Each season revolves around a different story, but the actors playing the different characters are the same.  I always love Evan Peters characters.  His characters in season 1 and season 2 are night and day, but he plays them both so well.  I love how he was in the The Office once as Michael’s nephew, who Michael spanked for being obnoxious.
  9. House of Cards. As I said earlier, I am holding onto these last couple of episodes so I can delay the sadness that will inevitably ensue.  I want to watch Season 2 asap!  Hurry Netflix 🙂
  10. Orange is the New Black.  The same thing applies for this show as it does for House of Cards. I will not repeat myself.

Anyway, that is what I’ve been thinking about today.  I did everything that I needed to do yesterday, cleaning, laundry, grocery shopping, etc, and I didn’t realize that I left nothing for today.  This is what you have 🙂  I will now go back to eating my Lean Cuisine lasagna.

Thanks for reading.

Megan

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98 thoughts on “Sorrow on a Sunday

  1. I get the same way about books, tv shows, and movies. I thought it was just me! When the Harry Potter series ended, I was sad for a while. I began re-reading them and got through it; and I also had the movies to fall back on. I love picking up a new book, though; there’s something about expecting to connect with the characters or the story that has a happy feeling about it. Interesting.

      1. Well, are you a Christian or interested in reading non-fiction Christian books? I’ve only been reading these types of books for the past few months. Haven’t really gotten into much else unfortunately. Have you ever read Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson?

      2. I actually am Christian, but haven’t read much in the way of Christian books. I have read Speak. I remember my friends and I reading it in middle school and being all silly about the whole rape thing. Great book if I remember correctly.

      3. Well, in terms of Christian books, Francis Chan’s Crazy Love is really, really good. If you’ve never read C.S. Lewis’ Mere Christianity, definitely check that one out. Twisted is also by Laurie Halse Anderson. I remember enjoying it but haven’t read it in a while.

  2. You dont have to do anything today.

    Anyway you DID do stuff. You painted, you created, you thought, you wrote, you loved Chester….that’s plenty

  3. I was worried that I might have one of those days. Reading Dr. David Burns’ book on Feeling Good helped. I went to the gym, shopped, called a friend so I consider it okay.

  4. I feel the same way about ending shows or books. I have incredibly sad. Like I lost friends. Or something. I have actually been known to not finish season finales because I don’t want them to end. I totally understand. I love your painting too!!

  5. I know how you feel when you say you feel depressed when you’ve rescue the last episode of a beloved show. This is especially true when you watch nothing, but that show (like on Hulu) for a long time and then all the sudden all the characters you’ve come to know and love are gone. Same with a good book.

    I watched the Office from start to finish over a period of a few weeks I guess and I was so sad when it was over!
    I just started watching Heros. Have you ever watched My So Called Life? That’s a great 90’s series.

    1. I feel the same way. I hate when the characters are no longer there 😦 Especially with books because I never read a book twice. I have never seen My So Called Life, but it is in my queue 🙂

  6. I really hate those kind of days. I hope you have a good day tomorrow Megan.
    p.s. i still think your painting is beautiful (:

  7. Sometimes a slow empty nothing day is needed and not a bad thing. I’ve been going through 5 seasons of Buffy the past few weeks and relating waaaaaaaaaay too much. Either my subconscious remembered the plots and tricked me into watching.., or… it’s like how easily relate-able horoscopes can be. Not sure which, but again.. not a bad thing. 2 seasons left and not sure I want to go there. Also.. thumbs up to Eureka. I miss that show. Also also… decorative, artsy, practical, or therapeutic.. doesn’t matter. yay painting.

    1. I used to love Buffy 🙂 Have you ever seen the movie? It’s pretty terrible, but I somehow had it on VHS when I was younger… Thank you for liking the painting 🙂

  8. I definitely get sad at the end of a good book. The latest was the Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman.The closer I got to the end of the book, the better it got, and the more bummed I became at the realization that I would never be able to read it again for the first time. It’s one of the reasons I can’t sell my books. I get too attached.

    I need to watch X Files. It’s on my instant queue, but I keep forgetting to put it on. I’ve heard nothing but good things.

    1. Definitely watch X-Files. I’m going to level with you, the first season is rough, but they catch their stride by the second. A few of the episodes in the 1st season come into play later in the series, so don’t skip it. The episode called “Space” is terrible and not integral to the story at all, so if you want to skip it, go for it 🙂

      I don’t know if you’re this way or not, but I can’t read books twice. If I really like a book, I can’t give it away either.

      1. It’s rare that I’ll give a book a second reading. It loses a lot of its magic by then, and I like to keep our relationship in that honeymoon stage when I thought (at the time) it was the best book I’ve ever read.

        That, and there’s too many books to read out there. Doubling back just keeps me from the new ones.

      2. I like the way you describe this 🙂 I’m the same way. I have never read a book twice for similar reasons to your own. I’m also weird about telling people which books I read because I don’t want them to feel the same thing I did about the story and characters. I want it to be my own. It doesn’t really make sense, but I’ve always done that and I don’t know why.

      3. Oh, I’ll let other people know what I’m reading, but normally it’s not something they’re interested in. And if it is something they’re going to read, I make a point not to talk about how they felt about it. Let them have their experience, and I’ll have mine.

  9. A day of nothing can be a good thing lady. They happen rarely with me. Today we thought we lost a cat, only to figure out he has a new hiding place somewhere I. E house!

    I disliked immensely the ending of Lost. I thought the writers took the easy way out. To was there (long before your time) for the last episode of MASH. we were all sad at that one…

    1. I guess I just don’t know how to take it easy 🙂 I’m glad you found your cat! Chester has given me a scare a few times. One time he actually did make his great escape through the window screen and onto the sill on the other side 😉 he came right back in though.

      The ending to Lost was lazy and left me feeling crappy. Perhaps I should watch MASH 🙂

      1. In Lost I think the writers wanted another year, when they were told his was it, they said “fine, then you get crap”

        Last week my oldest came home to fine Mewson outside on the front deck, all proud of himself for escaping…..

        Love the cats, but they can also be stress inducers!

      2. I think your Lost theory is correct 🙂 I always thought Sawyer was cute 😉

        I love the name Mewson for a cat! That’s really cute. I love Chester to death, as you know, but he can definitely be a stinker sometimes. Like last night, he kept sneaking up to my desktop monitor and biting the cord underneath the desk, while looking at me! I know he was doing it to gain attention because I would run at him telling him to stop, sometimes picking him up and moving him physically. Before I knew it, he would be creeping back up to the cord. Needless to say, it’s all chewed up. 😉 Per my mom, I put aluminum foil around it, so maybe he won’t like the texture. Maybe, but probably it won’t work…

  10. Do you ever let a day go by without doing anything memorable? Is there ever a point at the end of the day when you say, wow, I did absolutely nothing today?

    Reading these words at the top of your post, after seeing your painting, struck a chord with me. I’m sad to say that I am intimately acquainted with such days. If I’m fortunate enough that such a day is a concert day, then I can at least force myself out of the lethargy for the sake of the music. Indeed, if today seemed a bit sluggish of spirit (as, I think, it did), I was pulled out by a drive into the country to see an outdoor concert of the Cleveland Orchestra. Otherwise, there’s always work to force me to do something on such a day, although that is less compelling in most cases.

    It’s an odd thing to look back on such a day and marvel at the void. It will typically make me want to stay up later then than I should. In the vain hope of redeeming the day with something useful in the night.

    I’d go absolutely bananas if I didn’t have my own cat to look out for me on blue days.

    And in conclusion, I like your painting. 🙂

    1. Thanks for liking my painting! I used to have many more days like this when I was in my teens, then college came and I was so busy. Now that I’m graduated, I’m back to having lulls. A drive in the country sounds lovely and refreshing as does the opportunity to hear an orchestra 🙂 I might’ve drove in the country, but I’d most definitely end up lost and probably in the backwoods somewhere, banjo music creeping eerily up from behind 🙂 I actually stayed up way later than I usually do, probably because I didn’t do anything, so I wasn’t tired.

      Cats are the best 🙂 Wouldn’t wish a day without mine.

      megan

      1. Periodically I break the DVD’s out and re-watch it from start to finish over the course of a week or two. I’m looking forward to Jonathan Rhys Meyers returning to TV this Fall with Dracula.
        Totally off subject, did you send me a friend request on Goodreads the other day?

      2. I had no idea he was going to be in Dracula. I’m definitely game for that 🙂 I did add you on Goodreads the other day. I remember you asked me awhile back about it, but I rarely used it. Finally remembered to add you when we started talking about books 🙂

  11. From my perspective, you did LOADS! You need to be around for one of my lazy days – which are mostly about sleeping, with a brief interval to walk the dog, and eat some biscuits. I really like that painting. 🙂 x

    1. I slept more than I usually do because my darn cat woke me up at 3 because he does this thing where he stands on his hind legs and scratches at the window at moths outside. Terribly annoying. 🙂 I did do a few things, but not enough I suppose to calm my restlessness 🙂

  12. Hello Megan!

    I loved Lost and the X-Files. I would watch them religiously! 🙂

    As for the Tudors ? OMG! I couldn’t get enough of it. When in the U.K I loved visiting Hampton Court Palace.

    I adore Johnathon Rhys Meyers!
    Boy is he hot! Lol. I have had days like that and used to love them. Now I’m single…I’m dreading the quiet nothing to do day. Lol
    Hugs Paula xxx

    1. When I have to walk in the rain or if it is cold and ugly out, I am in such a bad mood too. That’s a great mindset that you are working on. I need to think that doing nothing can be resting and stop being so restless sometimes 🙂

  13. Eureka was a great show.
    The British original of House of Cards was outstanding. Haven’t started the American remake yet.

    1. Eureka was a fun show 🙂 Always put me in a good mood. I’ve never seen the British version of House of Cards, but I don’t understand the British government quite as well, so I’m not sure how much of it I could relate to.

      1. I don’t think it requires very much knowledge, but I’ve got a reasonable working knowledge, so I may not be a good judge (and when it aired on Masterpiece Theater, the host explained a lot too).

  14. Hi Megan. I often have days like that when my mind is not occupied with work. I lack motivation to do activities a lot of the time unless I am doing them with someone. I love your painting by the way!

    1. When my boyfriend is around, we are constantly on the go. The changing dynamics have really thrown me off and I just don’t know what to do with myself in my spare time 🙂

  15. Hi Megan. I have a lot of days like that when I am not working. I lack motivation to do activities unless I am doing them with someone else so I usually just read my Kindle or watch TV. I love your painting!

  16. I was lucky enough to come late to Game of Thrones, so got to enjoy the first series back to back, but now the waiting begins. Just started Orange is the New Black so again, will hit catch up and tick tock tick tock. This is why people watch soaps….no waiting for 6 months for a new season!

    1. I can see why people like soaps, but I have never been one of them 😉 I really want to see Game of Thrones too, but I’d have to buy it or download it. I might definitely have to do that 🙂

  17. I know exactly how you feel…when I stay in the house all day I feel miserable. Sometimes this even happens when I KNOW I need a day off to just chill and let my mind rest.
    Also I’m the same way with TV shows. I just started watching Breaking Bad 3 weeks ago and I’m already caught up to the new episodes – and dreading when it’s going to end! (Which is soon). You aren’t alone in that!
    P.S. I’m an X Files fan too 🙂

    1. I do this too. I just can’t relax I guess. I’m too restless! My mom suggested I watch Breaking Bad and I will when my boyfriend gets back. I have a feeling he’ll like it too. Good to meet a fellow X-Phile 🙂

    1. I am watching the US one. I love Robin Wright, Kevin Spacey, and Kate Mara. I’ve heard good things about the British one, but I don’t know much about the parliamentary system, so I don’t know how well I’d relate.

  18. I am just like you when it comes to grieving over TV shows ending or good books, so you’re not alone lol. I was so sad when The sopranos ended and when Tony Soprano died in real life I was sad because there was no hope of them every coming back together for another one. Also, House. I was so sad when that ended as well. Many books have left me feeling this way as well. With a movie, it is only a couple of hours and you don’t get the chance to get attached to the characters as much and it isn’t the same. Have a great week sweetie! 😉

    1. Thank you! that is too sweet of you. It was a terrible loss when James Gandolfini passed. I never watched the Sopranos, but I’ve heard it’s very good. I’m certain it would be one that would depress me in the end, though. I’m so glad someone else is the same way. 🙂

  19. Never think you’ve achieved nothing! We all do it (I’m doing it today) where we sit around and think we’re wasting our time. But,we should try and see it as moments to appreciate the relaxation and simplicity because before we know it, we’re back in the rat race. I know the feeling though, some days you’re just bloody fed up! Lovely painting X

    1. Thank you for liking the painting 🙂 I hate that I’m so restless! I will take your advice and appreciate the times when I can just relax, doing nothing.

  20. There is an ending for eureka? Which is the last season?
    The end of “lost” is nothing anybody sgiuks ever talk about 😉

    And btw I know such days. I hate them but I try to learn to accept them and relax …

    Have a good week.
    Ben

    1. 🙂 It ended last year, 2012, and the last season I think was 5. No worries though, it was a happy ending 🙂 I won’t ruin it for you.

      The end of Lost was disheartening and I’m glad you agree 🙂
      megan

  21. Thanks for sharing this memorable write; and hey, it’s justa part of livin’ (smile)! Love the painting and that was a great accomplishment, sweetie. Oh, and think about checking out “Til Death.” It’s a comedy and it together with “King of Queens,” etc. come on at around my bedtime. I love to marinade in laughter all night.

    1. No, thank you for taking the time to read! That means a lot to me. I love King of Queens 🙂 Very funny sitcom. Now I’m going to have to check out Til Death. Thank you for appreciating the painting as well 🙂
      megan

  22. OH, CHESTER WAS JUST…closing his eyes so he could concentrate on what you were saying. 🙂 All but the last poem in my most recent batch were from a sad but very busy weekend….I see you’ve read a couple. By the way, it was SANTA BUDDIES’ ending that got me shedding tears. I’m a sucker for the kids’ stuff.

    1. It was a weird weekend for me to Jonathan 🙂 I’m sorry that you had one too, but glad that you know how I felt. Santa Buddies is cute 🙂
      megan

  23. I can’t remember the last time I had a do nothing day. Maybe now that the kids are gone I will get one. Even though you might not accomplish much, I think a lazy day goes a long way to recharge your batteries and get you ready for a new week. 🙂

    1. That’s true in a way 🙂 Even though I didn’t realize it at the time, the day of doing nothing made me ready for a week filled with loads of work!

  24. As much as we dread these types of days, I believe that they are necessary. I believe you stated something resembling you do things to keep your mind distracted. I could be wrong but I think these days bring balance to our distracted days. No, I’m not a fan of the feeling, necessarily, but I’m an introvert and so I embrace being alone without feeling lonely. Maybe you can go on a walk and just be, it seems like you like to take pictures of flowers :). Sometimes, we need to rest/do nothing/down days (not emotionally)…Anyways, I think re-reading any book is great because I always find something different (especially when there has been a great deal of time in between readings)!

    1. I think you are right 🙂 After having this kind of day of doing nothing, which seemed rough at the time, I now appreciate how great not having to do anything is 🙂 This week at work has been VERY busy and more than makes up for the lull on Sunday 🙂

  25. Love the painting. You should soon add breaking bad to that list. Loved American horror story. I started watching season 5 of breaking bad last night and it wouldn’t work on any of them I think it’s because that season started in HD, any way I ended up watching recaps of each episode to get me caught up, I was not a happy camper, may have to buy season 5 unless they fix it.

  26. I’m definitely one of those people that can get in awful moods when left to myself too long. While thinking can be good, it is definitely my worst enemy too. My boyfriend is possibly joining the military soon, so, I’m already picturing a few days being like what you described. I’m going to have to make a list of ideas and things to do so I don’t let myself hide away at home and become an anxious wreck! As always, thanks for sharing! You most certainly are not alone in your experiences 🙂

  27. I think generally…especially in my case, that sense of let down and sadness of not having something to do…is always there. But when there is nothing to DO, it comes around and bites me in the arse. 😉

    I think that is what nailed me so hard when I got injured…there was no escaping my mind and all the irrational thinking, the black and white statements abounded. What was I good for if I wasn’t at least cleaning. Which went right back to my childhood, where I was expected to clean the house and never stop, because if I stopped punishment ensued, and that fateful statement when I was 13 and they told me I was only good for two things…and one of those was cleaning. SO, FOR ME, not having the ability to clean or the cleaning distraction is definitely related to something from my past.

    But you know what? Everyone is entitled to relax, and more so if you work your arse off all the time. So take it easy….be kind to your inner self who needs down time to just BE. ❤

    1. Being left in my mind is the worst part. As you know I’m sure, it can go in a number of directions and too much time to think usually leads to no good. Who in the world tells a 13 year old that they are ONLY good at 2 things!? That makes my heart break. There are so many things you must be good at. You are excellent at expressing yourself 🙂

      1. My step-father was an exceptionally cruel man, and my mother was no better.

        BUT, moving to the present – I hope I’m good at more things, I know I enjoy many things.

        Thank you for the compliment, writing is my life line in many ways….I’m always worried I am not expressing myself correctly or coherently

        That inner critic never lets up. Which is part of that whole inner mind thing.

        I wish we could root those things out. Because I think if we were given a chance to examine them, by looking directly at them…we’d see something that has morphed from insecurity (or cruelty), becoming a wart of ugliness, while it makes every attempt to cripple our inner selves because of that insecurity.

        I wonder does it cease to live if we stop breathing on it or in it….or better still, because we hold our breath ever time it speaks…perhaps we NEED to BREATHE on it.

      2. This was particularly poignant and scarily accurate of the things we hold onto that are damaging us. I have been victimized so much in my young life by creepy-ass adult men and it definitely has left an ugly mark on my psyche. It’s not always easy finding these things about ourselves and then staring at them directly in the face, but for me it seems the only way to make myself whole again is to confront them head on.

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