I am feeling pretty down tonight and a bit embarrassed. I knew this time would come eventually, but just wasn’t expecting it to happen so suddenly. I am talking about my recent obsession with Lolita fashion. I kid you not, it has been the only thing that has occupied my mind for the last week or so. I even made the dress as a way to practice to make my own Lolita dress! I bought a petticoat and finally got it, tried it on, hated the way it made me look, and just like that, my obsession was over. I feel nothing for Lolita fashion now. I have stopped looking at pictures on the internet, trolling DIY tutorials, and looking for good sales on Lolita fashion. It has stopped dead.
You have witnessed the birth and death of one of my obsessions. It has been interesting for me to see. I’ve never documented one of them in such a way, so I can see my behavior a little more clearly.
I guess I’m just glad I kept myself somewhat under control and didn’t go and buy something way too expensive, only to have regrets tonight and probably for awhile to come. In a way, I’m glad it’s over. I was fretting far too much on how I would acquire different aspects of the fashion, how I could afford it, and how I could meet other Lolitas. Not that I find anything wrong with Lolita fashion. Not in the slightest. I think the fashion is unique, beautiful, and has a purpose. I admire anyone who can maintain an interest in something and continue on with it for months and even years and be true to their interest. Times like this make me wonder who I really am. I just never know what it is that I really enjoy and what my hobbies, if any, are. I will be honest and say that I hate this aspect of myself. I really, really wish I wasn’t this way.
My mom does the same thing with fleeting obsessions. She has for a long time. For the last few weeks, she has coached me through this and encouraged me not to buy anything unless I was certain that I could afford it without compromising my living situation. Good advice. 🙂 I’d be a lot worse off if it weren’t for that encouragement.
Anyway, I’m just glad that I could get that out there in the open. You won’t be hearing much, if anything at all, about Lolita fashion on my blog anymore.
Sorry to be a Debbie downer, but that’s life 🙂
Time to smile and move on to tomorrow.
Thanks for reading!