I’m sure everyone goes through this. I know I do at least weekly, sometimes daily. I eat something and then instantly regret that I stuffed those needless calories into my mouth. I did this tonight. I had 3 slices of pizza and a piece of my coffee cake that I made the other day. I feel so bad about myself at this moment and I know the feeling won’t go away until I work out.
I do this all the time to myself. I worry and worry about gaining weight and what I eat that when I do eat something that is not so great for me, I feel terrible about myself for a long time afterward.
When I was younger, I think this used to be a lot worse. I’m happier with my body now and I know that I actually have gained weight since taking sertraline, but the constant obsession with what I eat still bothers me. In high school in particular, I was constantly worried about my weight. I remember not eating anything but maybe yogurt for lunch in high school. I was so, so skinny. At one point, I remember weighing myself and I was under 100lbs and I must’ve been around 15 or 16 years old, not that I ever want to be that thin again. It was unhealthy. I didn’t realize I looked so thin until a girl in one of my classes asked my best friend if I was anorexic.
Obviously for me some of it was peer pressure. My best friend was thin and tall and actually a b*tch, but now she’s my ex-friend so let’s leave it at that. Anyway, I was under a lot of pressure to be thin.
Now, I am under little to no peer pressure, but the thoughts still linger. Maybe it’s just part of being a woman, or maybe it’s just me. I have no realistic idea of what my body looks like to others or even myself. I don’t know. Anyway, as of late, I have taken to drinking green tea because I heard it helps to maintain a healthy weight. I drink a cup everyday in the afternoon and at least psychologically I feel better about myself, weight-wise.
Anyway, enough about me!
He has somehow figured out how to squeeze his body beneath these shelves and then do a really fast sideways crawl underneath them. He wants you to try to get his paws when he does this. Here’s one of him a little further away:
He is so hilarious.
Finally, I just wanted to remind everyone that the Giveaway will close at 12:00 am tonight. If you haven’t entered yet, do so asap 🙂 Here’s the link to enter: Giveaway Link.
Thank you for reading and have a lovely evening.