I Was A Cat Today

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This is a very close up picture of me, sorry about that 🙂

Happy Halloween 🙂  I did nothing but go to work today and when I came home I worked on crocheting my scarf.  Pretty proud of myself for getting the hang of this. I love the texture of crocheted things.  The feeling is very appealing to me.  As weird as it may sound, I just like to rub my hands on the scarf.  I’m all about textures and always have been and have had texture issues most of my life.

I wore these cat ears to work today.  No one expected it, but no one was surprised either 🙂 Everybody knows that I love cats and I’m glad for that.  It’s a part of me.  They’re just awesome creatures.

When you work in a small office 40 hours a week, you get to know the people you work with quite well, whether you like it or not.  Somehow it seems my coworkers know more about me than some members of my own family or some friends.  Somehow they all know I have OCD, probably because I wipe down my desk every day with Clorox wipes and wash my hands more than obviously is normal.

I guess what I’m getting at is I wish that it wasn’t so uncomfortable for me to open up to the people who I should be able to open up to.  I don’t feel comfortable sharing aspects of my mental health or interests with my father. I just don’t feel comfortable.  My mom, on the other hand, is the person I share everything with.  Sometimes I feel like I live two different lives.  I don’t always feel that I’m being true to who I am.

This is one thing that I’d like to change about myself.

Thank you for reading 🙂
Megan

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85 thoughts on “I Was A Cat Today

  1. People are either very watchful in office environments or very oblivious. I find it a little creepy that people are so observant of you wiping the desk down and washing your hands, but honestly, I wouldn’t worry about it.
    Most of us have one parent we’re closer to than the other, this is totally normal.
    Has it ever occured to you that some of your co-workers might be reading your blog?

  2. So you were a crazy car lady for Halloween? 😀 My parents don’t know everything about me and there are things I will never tell them, mainly for my own sanity. And pics of Chester. I need my Chester fix, please. 😀

  3. I hear you about being uncomfortable opening up. Hang in there honey, one day you’ll burst at the seams opening up. Your already on your way there with this blog. But yes, sometimes strangers are far easier to open up to!

  4. Here’s something about me that puzzles me, yet I enjoy. In the back of my mind, songs are always playing. It may be one I recently heard or a couple that just insist on being heard. “Unchained Melody” by the Righteous Brothers is the favorite. Another strange habit is to count things, like people in the room, or tiles on the floor, or…who knows? Thanks for letting me share.

  5. While I don’t have OCD I do have certain things I would like to be more open about but fear disclosing. Things that might leave me open to ridicule. I applaud your courage in being true to yourself, and wish I had that strength.

  6. Random: I tried to teach myself how to crochet but I lost interest in about .592 seconds so I am just sticking to knitting. I too, also wipe my desk and hands with cleaning wipes that specifically say “not for use on skin” : ) I think it’s pretty sweet that we have that in common!

    1. Sorry it didn’t work out for you! Also, I saw a show once about how toxicity levels can buildup in your body if you use wipes without cleaning your hands afterward. That’s what got me to stop doing that 🙂

  7. Hi Megan,
    I also crocheted last winter. I started with a scarf but it ended up being too short – it was one of those that you start with a certain amount of stitches and then you multiply them in every second row – it makes these big flowy ruffles. I used a uneven wool with all the different reds in it. So I gave it away and started making mittens without fingers – much quicker so you don’t get bored, especially quick when making them for kids. Then I just sewed on some buttons or flowers – cute. You should make yourself some cat ears 😀

    Love how honest you are in your writing. THank you for sharing!

  8. I totally get that. My grown children do not know who I am inside. They think they do, but they have never bothered to take the time to really ask me what makes me tick. They just think I’m all about “Mom” stuff and my hobbies. They have no idea what my hurts, fears, or joys actually are on more than just a surface level. I think that’s sad. They are young and very wrapped up in themselves and their own lives. I don’t harbor resentment about it. I just think it’s sad.

      1. Hi Megan, everybody feels the same. We are the same person but we share different facets of ourselves with the various people in our lives. Sometimes it is about empathy – we only share with them what they are comfortable with and sometimes it is about their empathy and we know we can share anything with them. Mums and sisters tend to be on the last list for us girls….

      2. Well thank you so much 🙂 I think the scarf turned out great. I do love Celtic patterns so much. I doubt I’ll get that good at crocheting, maybe someday, but I’d love to incorporate celtic patterns in my work.

  9. One step at a time, take something small first and build it up. You have conquered so much already and is moving forward. Keep walking, what would a cat do? right jump fly and on occasion hit their head and still do it again later and succeed. Have a great day. Keep smiling.

  10. Loved the catears 🙂 sharing your personal life can be hard, I did hide alot myself many years and felt as you like to different persons, but than I showed my story in publuc and I could finally be me, because my story and past is a big part of me today, all those steps changing me and I know want to use my story one day in some way and before that happened I needed to do this. so for me this was the right thing to do, but I think it’s imortant to not do it before you’re ready. FOr me it just came to this point where I knew now it’s time to share 🙂 But something is still to personal to share and I only share with those I really trust.

    1. Thank you 🙂 It can be difficult to do, but seeing your success with it has made me feel more confident about it. I think in the right setting and in front of the right audience, I wouldn’t mind sharing openly with others.

  11. Yea, I love my cat too…as you know. Totally get that. And yes it is true that workmates do get to know a side of you….need to be a little cautious though, because things can change suddenly. As for parents, sigh…yes, I know. Sometimes yes sometimes no, sometimes one sometimes the other. SOetimes neither. Take care my friend….x

    1. She is pretty great. I’m thankful for her being there for me all the time. 🙂 I’m literally a cat woman 😀 Not just a crazy one either! Hope your weekend goes well Paula 🙂

  12. Nothing wrong with being unable to share as much with one parent as the other. I share more with Mom than Dad. I share more with Sis than Mom. I share more with my two children than either of them. And yet, I imagine I share more with all of you than my family most of the time!
    Scott

  13. 안녕 메간! (Annyeong Megan!)
    How are you? I am new in your blog, and I just followed you 🙂
    I came here when you liked my post – DIY: Pants into Grunge Shorts.
    My blog’s new, and you’re my first visitor who liked a post of mine (Thank you!). 😀

    I also have a great deal of love for feline creatures! In fact, our family have 6 cats, and 2 kittens in total! We used to have 14 cats a month ago, but we just have to give the others away (It’s a heartbreaking memory) because we were so crowded! And we can’t fully take care of them all in that number.

    Please send my love to Chester and your family! Hope all’s well with you. xoxo

    1. 😀 Thank you for stopping by as well! I thought my one cat was handful, but having as many as you and your family have must be like a small zoo, but a very, very cute zoo! I wish I could have more cats, One day perhaps 🙂 Thank you for sharing!

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