I’m really not joking when I say I love my meds. I talked about this once a very long time ago in my blog and I want to bring it up again and update my life on meds as of right now.
My anxiety level went from an all time high to an all time low once I started taking them. After my “breakdown”, that’s what I’ll call it anyway, I saw a psychiatrist, who after discussing therapy and medication with me, told me about sertraline. Desperate for some relief from anxiety, I opted in. I started taking 25 mg of sertraline and slowly increased my dosage from there. I remember how calm and floaty I felt those first few days. It was pretty awesome. I was instantly less of a b*tch.
Nearly 2 years later, I am still taking sertraline, but now I’m at a dosage of 100 mg. The floaty, overly relaxed feeling is gone, or at least I don’t notice it anymore. It’s just become a part of my life. I know without it, my anxiety probably would have driven me to do something terrible to myself.
I am not saying that medication is for everyone, but for me it has worked wonders in helping me lower my anxiety levels. I never want to go back to that awful place I was at. I like life at at this moment, perhaps in the future I’ll ween off of it, but not without therapy as a fail safe.
With all the good that comes with taking medication, there is also a lot of not so good things. I want to be 100% honest with you about the side-effects, or at least the things I’ve experienced since starting sertraline. I will actually just go ahead and list them, so that it’s even more straight forward:
- Laziness. Prior to taking sertraline I was at least moderately active. I was hyper all the time and had a desire to keep moving and keep doing something. I didn’t love exercise, but I could do it. Now, it takes a LOT of coaxing to get me to do any form of physical exertion. Exercise? Forget about it. I have to have a really, really good reason to get out and about and motivated to exercise. My desire to get a tattoo has been my motivation for the past few months.
- Low Libido. I hate talking about this, especially since my mom reads, but yeah this too has gone downhill, big time since I started taking meds. Kind of goes along with the laziness thing I think.
- Night Sweats. Oh my goodness. The night sweats are the worst by far. I have to now sleep on a waterproof mattress pad because I’ll absolutely ruin our mattress if I don’t. I usually have to get up at least once, if not more, a night to completely change my pajamas because they’re just absolutely soaked. It’s so gross. Definitely the worst part about the medication for me.
- Weight Gain. I haven’t been more than 115 lbs since high school. As soon as I went on sertraline, I started gaining weight. I’ve read and was told by the psychiatrist that it’s not due to the medication itself, but to the fact that I’m calmer and more likely to eat. The laziness sure contributes too.
- Vivid Dreams. My dreams now are super, super vivid. This is not always a bad thing. They are sometimes pretty cool and movie-like. What’s not cool was having dreams like the one I had last night. It was a ‘I was pregnant and didn’t know it’ scenario, in which I had a baby out of nowhere and K and I were freaking out because we had no idea it was coming and we couldn’t afford it. It was just awful.
These are the things that I have experienced since starting sertraline. Like I said before, medication is not for everyone, but has certainly helped me. These are some things that hopefully will help you a bit when considering medication.
I’m glad to share this with you. Thanks for reading!