Tomorrow, as most of you might know, is Thanksgiving Day in the United States. We celebrate by gathering with family and friends and eat until we tear the lining of our stomachs (not really, but it certainly feels like that). It’s a time for people to basically stuff their faces in the name of holiday.
Most people look at this as a time to get really excited about being with family and eating great food, maybe watching the game, or if you’re like me, sneaking drinks from the flask in your jacket pocket…
For someone who struggles with anxiety, namely OCD, and who has a phobia of the dreaded “v” word that rhymes with comet, then the holidays are not quite as fun as they might be for someone else, who doesn’t have anxiety.
The holidays, particularly Thanksgiving in Christmas because they are during the cold months, for me are not something I always look forward to. They combine my two biggest issues: people and eating, sometimes eating with hands. Of course I like to see my family, well most of them anyway, I just have issues with a lot of the tradition in general.
I really, really dislike eating with a lot of other people around and sharing food with others makes it even more difficult. The idea that someone is has touched the serving spoon and could be carrying an illness that they have yet to show symptoms of, is one that is quite overwhelming to me. It absolutely terrifies me in fact. The notion that someone could be harboring an illness is constantly on my mind. I’m not even kidding you, CONSTANTLY. There’s rarely a moment in my life that goes by that my thoughts are not consumed by thoughts of protecting myself from illness and avoiding possible contamination. I never ever put my hands near my face, especially my mouth. I avoid communal finger foods like the plague (no pun intended). These are just some of the things I do to “protect” myself.
Needless to say, tomorrow will be kind of stressful for me. My cousins are coming and they always seem to have some sort of disease. They gross me out. I will try to get in line before them to get my food.
Does anyone else struggle with this time of year?
Anyway, I hope everyone has a very lovely, healthy Thanksgiving 🙂
Thank you for reading.