It seems like it’s inevitable, writing a post at the beginning of a new year, recapping the previous year. Looking back on this year, I am satisfied with the progress I’ve made, in my opinion at least. I’ve been struggling with who I am for so long and still can’t say that I’m 100% satisfied with the answer, but I’m seeing further into myself. This blog and sharing my thoughts in writing have helped me to see myself deeper and to express myself in ways that I couldn’t before. I am now talking more openly in my personal life about the things that trouble me and I have to say, it’s some relief at last. Living a life of secrets and wearing a facade is tiring. Trust me, I’ve done it most of my life. It’s only been in the last year or so that I’ve taken the reigns of my life and decided that enough is enough. I’m not going to let mental illness decide who I am.
I have had the opportunity to meet so many new people, who are not only caring, but also understand the things I’m going through. Before starting this blog, I had trouble believing that other people could ever know what goes on in my head, but that’s not at all true. All my life I’ve struggled finding actual friends, people who I feel close enough to share the darkest thoughts that pop into my head. There were only about a handful of people in my life, if that, who I could’ve done this with prior to starting this blog. Now, I feel that my voice is finally heard.
On a softer note, I’ve been working on crocheting amigurumi. I made a fortune cookie for Chester and stuffed it with catnip, filling, and tissue paper for the crackling sound. He loved it, for as long as he loves toys 😉 I put them away and later he’ll find them interesting.
Thank you everyone for all the support and kindness you’ve shown to me this past year. I appreciate it more than you know.