I Feel Like Things Are Getting Better

It is really, really cold today. When I woke up, it was -11 degrees F outside! My car was struggling to start. I am just counting the days until spring, so I wanted my featured image to be one of springtime and of my favorite herb, lavender πŸ™‚ I think it’s lavender anyway, but it might be that tricky flower that looks like lavender. Well, you get my point.

Here’s what it really looks like:

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Yuck.

Remaining positive and taking care of my body go a long way in helping me to be a happier and healthier person, but there’s only so much someone with OCD can do to make themselves feel “normal.” I have been feeling so much better about myself lately. I know it’s because I’m being mindful of my attitude/mood, what I eat, and the exercise I’m getting. These things have helped me tremendously. Medication helps too, but I couldn’t solely rely on it by being a passive user. I had to take control of me. The medication just takes the edge off.

Even though I think I’m doing better, there are some things that seem to have gotten worse or my compulsions have shifted toward them. I no longer wear “street clothes” in the house and I definitely don’t sit around in them. To me, doing that contaminates anything I touch in my household, my sacred place.

What I eat has become something that I’m watching like a hawk. Not only because I’m trying to get into better shape, but also because I’m afraid of food borne illness. We went to our favorite Chinese buffet yesterday and while everything ended up fine, I couldn’t get my mind off of having to touch what other people have touched and then going to eat. This is why whenever I go to a Chinese restaurant, I always use the chopsticks and never the silverware. Rewashed/reused silverware, especially at a Chinese restaurant, seems unsanitary to me.

I am working really hard at not forcing my anxieties onto K. I mean, really hard. It’s difficult for me to refrain from telling him to stop touching his face while we are in public or to constantly ask him if he washed his hands.

I refuse to watch the news. I swear, all they ever put on the news in my area is something about illness. I DO NOT need that kind of scare in my life. Just stop reporting it! I’m totally serious when I tell you that I turned on the news for like a minute yesterday and they were reporting about some kind of superbug. I mean come on! If it really is a “superbug” then there’s nothing you can do about it and you should just not worry.

I just hope this positiveΒ streak lasts. I tend to have roller coaster moods.

Megan

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34 thoughts on “I Feel Like Things Are Getting Better

  1. I’m glad things are getting better for you. And those things that haven’t will improve with time and diligence. Everyone has points where they feel like they’re slipping or not improving as much as they should, but you know we are our own worst critics. You’re doing great. =)

  2. Hang on, Dear. Not only is spring coming, but the cold snap ends next week, I believe.
    As far as the superbug, at least, it’s in CA for the time being.
    Just concentrate on you and yours,
    Scott

    1. I didn’t listen to the story long enough to know that it was in CA πŸ˜€ glad I don’t live there I guess. Hopefully this winter storm isn’t as bad as they are saying! Stay work Scott πŸ™‚
      Megan

  3. You wrote: “Remaining positive and taking care of my body go a long way in helping me to be a happier and healthier person,”

    This is so, so true. This is something I’ve been trying to do myself and it really has been making a difference in a lot of areas in my life..not just with my mild OCD.

    I’m inspired by this…thank you and keep pushing!

  4. Keep on keeping on beautiful!! You are doing great!
    Speaking as someone who also suffers from a mental disorder we tend to be very critical of everything we do and are. While not easy, learning to let go of self judgment is also an action that can be taken to improve one’s health as it too is a choice.
    In any case I admire your candid writing which is just a beautiful as you are. Inside and out. >3 πŸ™‚

  5. I can’t believe how much we are alike in symptoms. I am always asking my husband to wash his hands. I live in terror of having to take someone or go to the ER since we have already and you can imagine what THAT is like. Oh, well, I also feel the same way about street clothes and handbags and briefcases. Well, such is life with OCD.

    1. I absolutely dread going to hospitals or urgent care places too. I totally get what you mean. I’m glad someone can understand fully what I’m going through, but sad that you do experience these feelings too 😦

  6. Girl it was -24 when I got in my car this morning. I’s so ready for spring it’s nt even funny. I’ve been lighting all my flower garden scebted candles and beach scented candles to trick myself into thinking it’s spring/summer, and have been wearing all my summer perfumes πŸ˜‚πŸ’πŸŒ΄

  7. Where I am the snow banks are significantly taller than I am (Canadian winters are living hell). But yes, it is almost March it will all be over soon enough! I am glad things are looking up for you, that’s great πŸ™‚ PS. Chop sticks are way more fun any ways.

  8. Sounds like you doing great and that’s great to hear, or read! Keep up the good work Hun- spring will soon be here- England is looking for like spring we have crocus and daffodils out! Come over here! πŸ˜‰ x

      1. Please feel free to communicate with me anytime you want, Megan. I’m more that happy to chat πŸ˜€ ❀

  9. I know how you feel it’s cold over here too and we are getting yet another snowstorm next weekend. I have felt so depressed. The weather is terrible for moods and anxiety being stuck in the house. I hope you feel better soon and stay positive! I hope the Spring gets here fast for us both.

      1. Yea true it has to be less than a month away. I am just trying to count down the days and then I will have so much fun in the Spring. Hope your mood improves! feel better soon!

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