I just realized today that I have written over 400 posts on this blog. I have never written that much of anything in my life, so I feel like that’s a pretty big accomplishment for me. I honestly can’t believe I’ve kept up with my blog for over 3 years now. That’s longer than anything I’ve ever committed hobby-wise. A lot of first for me, apparently.
I just wanted to take the time to thank everyone who has followed me over the years, some of you have been with me since the beginning and I thank you for that. I’m thankful for all of you and the support you have shown me.
In terms of mental health, I don’t write about it as much anymore. After being diagnosed in 2012 with OCD, I realized now that what I was experiencing had a name and I could better address it. I’ve come to identify my specific triggers, what really stresses me out, and what causes me so much anxiety that I can barely function. My phobia is still around and I’m not sure when I’ll be able to address it head on and the OCD will always be there, but I’m learning to manage my compulsions better. Medication helps a bit. One day, hopefully, I’ll get to the point where my phobia is not as bad. I’ve learned to control the things that I can control and face the things that I can’t. I feel more comfortable now than I have in awhile, but the winter time is coming and my anxiety gets worse during the colder months, so we’ll see.
I keep up with this blog because meeting people from around the world makes me feel not so alone. I live a small life and do my best to be a decent person. I’m not always a joy to be around, but I try to be conscious of the feelings of others. I try.
I have gotten criticisms and harsh comments about my writing or my blog, but I’ve gotten tons of support and kindness as well. PS, if you don’t like my writing, you don’t have to read it! No one is making you and I am not charging anyone to visit.
I have been trying to put the focus on the happy things in my life and the things I enjoy. I don’t always want to talk about mental health and my issues because I generally keep those to myself in real life and find that moping and complaining about my problems doesn’t help anyone. If ever you would like me to write something specifically, please don’t hesitate to send me a message. Seriously, talking about my “rough days” and episodes of stress only makes me dwell on those times more and I just feel worse and worse. Wouldn’t you just like to be happy too?
My goal in life is to focus on the cute, the sweet, and the happy. I hope you will continue to join me in that pursuit because every last one of you means the world to me. Knowing I’m not alone has given me the strength to become a better person.
Thank you again, and here’s to another 400 posts to come!
PS I’m always happy to hear from you! Please send me a message at thewarinmybrain at hotmail dot com or just comment below 🙂 I always read comments, even if I don’t always get to them right away!