Each year that the fall semester of college begins, I feel older and older. I still live in the city where I went to college because K is still studying and I just love this city. It’s absolutely wonderful and is just full of life and culture. It is like a big city and a small town in one. It’s just perfect. Sometimes, I take K to his office so that we can carpool and save on gas rather than both of us driving. He works on campus, so I inevitably see lots of students walking around. The freshmen are shockingly young looking! I guess at this point, I am about 7 years older than some of them. Holy cow, time flies!
Sometimes, it is difficult for me to believe that I am nearing 30. I exactly remember my childhood and it wasn’t that long ago!! I never feel that I really “grew up.” I am totally on my own now, financially, so I don’t know what this feeling of childhood-adult limbo is.
I don’t want to be a boring adult and my least favorite phrase to hear is “Will this day ever be over?” I’m sad when days end! That means my life is a day shorter now. I try to enjoy every day that I can and I’m really working on being more positive.
Now that winter is nearing, I am preparing myself mentally for the increase in illness. During the colder months, I can really get down and REALLY anxious. My anxiety is cyclical and is much worse during the colder months. I am trying not to fear the fall and winter. Like last year, I tried to enjoy and observe all the beautiful things about the colder months and just take the time to find the things I appreciate. I don’t want to say, “is this day almost over?” I don’t want to reflect on the negative. I despise feeling sad and anxious and I need to be mindful of how I think, act, and feel in order to overcome those feelings. I CAN do it.
I implore all of you to stick with me and encourage me to remain positive. Do you struggle with negativity? How do you stay mindful about yourself and grateful for the things you have in life?
I’d love to hear from you all on this! I always appreciate when others share 🙂